Thursday, December 28
failure
Tuesday 26th December 2006
Failure to wake up early
Failure to turn up for GPA training
At driving lesson today...
Failure to fasten seatbelt
Failure to check rear mirror
Failure to check blind spot
Failure to on headlights
Failure to turn the car left at gear 2
Failure to hit the brake pedal before clutching in
Failure to maintain the car moving (stalled twice)
Failure to release handbrake at slope
Failure to hit the brake pedal harder to reduce speed
Failure to hit the accelerator pedal to increase speed
So that made me an entire failure for the day. I know he was very upset with my performance. I would usually leave the car with a comment like this from him. "Very good, keep up your standard. Don't lose the confidence." But i left car no. 68 (damn the car because everything inside there was loose. i swear the car is not a virgin (lol) because i've never drove that car and boy it totally suck i tell you.) with a comment like this. "Why is it so hard for you to hit that DAMN brake pedal!? What happened to you?! Make sure you get back your standard by next practical..."
So i walked in the rain home all alone, walked around at tampines central, splurge impulsively though i know i owe singtel more than $150 for my hp bill (which means you guys won't receive calls/smses from me often), owing my dad a sum of $200 for practical, owing claire $58.20 because the visa card couldn't work so i used hers...
Wednesday 27th December 2006
I had to come to terms that the elder one woke me up from sleep saying i was late for meeting and was totally surprised my alarm did not go off only to find my Samsung E720 is down with a massive acute myocardial infarction which left him unconcious thus the inability to wake me up on time. He could not even be revived after several rounds of CPR and i was almost to tears realising that i'm going to be broke within this week (which is just the first week post pay day) just trying to fix the damn hp.
Made the father fetch me and the younger sister over to the unit for a meeting with the ncos
Came home, totally forgot about tarian practice today. Sold off my 4.40pm slot (thankfully someone bought it despite the slow internet connection due to the 7.1 on the richter scale earthquake that hit taiwan) as i did not have the confidence to resume driving lessons though i knew i was doing fine and i knew i had drove overseas pretty well but when the instructor asked if i had stepped on the accelerator throughout my stay overseas, i verbalised a NO.
Left home in the rain. Badly miss him whom i've neglected the entire week. Was so looking forward to meeting up and watching Night at the Museum with him but guess what?
I had forgotten my watch so i couldnt keep track on time. The time on my nano was not accurate either
I had forgotten Dhoby Ghaut was not on the East West Line so by the time i realied it, i wa already at Outram
I was pissed off with myself because i had also forgotten to bring my bills for him to vet
I knew I was going to miss the movie slot so i dragged him over to City Hall and headed off to Suntec in an attempt to catch ANY MOVIE but guess what?
There was no movie slot at all between 1935hr to 2120hr so the next movie slot was actually Borat which is R21 and neither me NOR him would ever wana risk sneaking me in though i look 24 but i'm not yet 21 on the pink ic, so we had gelare instead.
Wanted to walk around the sky garden but it was pouring madness as usual.
Headed off to Toys R Us and walked around
Headed off to Carrefour and shopped for DVDs
Headed home..--how boring our day was and it's all due to my carelessness and my shittified attitude. He was being patient all the while yet i was lamenting on my weaknesses as though i wasn't at fault. So everyone should by now know how i behave when i don't get what i want. Damn i'm one lucky idiot to have a patient boyfriend, else he would have dumped me in the streets.
I'm such an ass i guess.
I can't wait for school to resume because i'm going to have to live with the fact that i have barely $100 for my meals till my next pay and i have pending icas both projects and written papers which i've not started at all so that makes me another procrastinator i thought i had lost the moment i got into poly.
Now there's 24hrs in a day, 7 days in a week. What could possibly have made me sooo busy that i don't even have time for people/things i should attend to? I wonder.
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie
chocolate-spongecake @ 7:30 AM
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