Saturday, September 30
helloooooooooo
anyone want to go out with me one of these days until wednesday?
oh ya im going out with huda on mon.
i wanna shop for his present!
lalalalaal.
i wanna give him surprise.
yay.
home soon. 4 and a half more days.
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
cheesecake.
no more whinings from me.
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:36 PM
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thkies dearest frens for all e birthday wishes ayt
lurve u ppl truckloads
i gota make up my one day attachment on mon
haaiz lazy la..
anyways dun worry
my eyes r gettin better i guess
god noes how many drops of eyedrops i put in 1day
n e doc gave me 3 eyedrops sey
plus 1 cream which u have 2 put in ur eyes
dat 1 very pain sey wen apply
haha n oh ya kak, nat, huda, claire
u all noe wat?
e J ask me 2 go 2 e ward la eh jst nw
2 send my kkh card n sign my make up form
haiyo
funny ryt
i got mc n yet she ask me cum dwn jst 2 sign
den i nid 2 call e coordinator
n e coordinator sae hw cn she
haha
n so i nid not cum dwn todae
wat la...
n i've yet 2 noe wat kinda comments i got frm her eh
dada is it positive or nrgative comments eh?...
btw ppl at last my cravin 4 SG will b gone tmr
my mum n dad sae we will break fast thr
yey
take care ppl...
enjoy ur holidays ayt b4 3weeks attachment straight...
lotsa lurve.
spOngecake
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:42 AM
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Friday, September 29
18... all de way
happy birthday haz
wishin ya all de best for e yrs ahead,
glad dat u are finally 18 ha..ha..,
enjoy ur day to de fullest k,
recover soon from ur sore eyes,
alrity see ya ard ......
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:17 AM
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18..
biba!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you're finally 18!
nehninehnibooboo.. im still older than you.
lol. :D
remember i love you ok?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!
cheesecake.
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:00 AM
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18!18! finally someone is 18!
 18! 18! somebody is finally 18!!
you know how she's the youngest among us all..
and the way she behaves just fits it all..
yet there's this maturity that stayed behind..
that proved to us she's a friend of a kind..
for the smiles, the tears, the sarcasms and jokes..
the many many occasions of squabbles and disagreements..
which left us boiling but the friendship still works..
and at the end of the day our outings are always not in arrangement..
that enthusiastic spirit embedded in her soul..
the willingness to smile despite all her trials..
for being that strength who is always on hold..
and that mind who is willing to here me wail...
happy birthday dear sister,
happy 18th birthday..
it's your 2nd birthday,
yet we're fasting all the way..
remember i love you loads..
and that's all that matters...
for today, tomorrow and every other days...
the day we realised no differences should come our way..
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:00 AM
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Thursday, September 28
:)
HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY TO DEAR SPONGECAKE.!!!
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
and u my dear, must get well soon okie. :)
pls dun expect an expensive gift frm me, but just expect one next week k. haha. its just a simple gift. :)
love,
mutton.
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:48 PM
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seize the day
avenged sevenfold
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
I see my vision burn
I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past
I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you
I see my vision burn
I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
A melody, a memory, or just one picture
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Newborn life replacing all of us
Changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?
I see my vision burn
I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
A melody, a memory, or just one picture
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
Its empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real
So what if I never hold you, or kiss your lips again?
So I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
Its empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real
(Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day)
(Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day)
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
::emogurl::
chocolate-spongecake @ 7:57 PM
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testing
damnit.
our blog is lost.
cheesecake.
chocolate-spongecake @ 10:41 AM
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Wednesday, September 27
a baby was born..
Dear angels,
i've never been this amazed about life, nursing and God's creations in particular... i never knew the beginning of a newborn was this intricate and delicate and that every mother who is able to conceive and go through labour pain should feel blessed and overjoyed...
i never knew....
until...
i witnessed the delivery of a Malay-Arab baby boy... @ 1559hr today. What a blessing. i saw the contractions, the fetal height, the heartbeat, touched the mother's hands and reassured her that everything was going to be fine.. and saw how the doctor created three episiotomy cuts with no screamings nor screechings from the mummy.. and how the baby was safely delivered, suctioned and wrapped in a towel.. and how i invited the daddy (an arab muslim but look like american) to say the azan (prayers) for their 3rd bundle of joy and only boy so far..... and we touched and analyzed the placenta...
what a blessing... =) *contented*.. was in the labour ward yesterday but there was no delivery during my shift... thanks to emiline for calling me down today after my duty.... you all got shifts? we all obstetrics in sgh all AM whole week... heard KKH don't allow delivery to be witnessed by students? Yan Ping observed THREE yesterday at NUH....
till we meet again laydees...
love..
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 5:55 PM
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Monday, September 25
www.princessbeloved.blogspot.com
go go go.
i managed to find.
hah.
chocolate-spongecake @ 7:35 PM
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sg is too small
im pissed im pissed im pissed.
very very pissed.
wth.
how can that be?
grrr..
gfjsghrigbrejhgaehb
tyj
nsyr
kjyus
mk
tusx
utys
huda knows.
you'll soon know it too.
damn.
IM DA PRINCESS.
NOT HER.
cheesecake angry!
chocolate-spongecake @ 7:11 PM
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Sunday, September 24
happy fasting!!!
haha..
i'm fasting la..
and i don't wanna drink in this month.
whee~
will try to quit smokin too..
but, hmmm....
i dunno lah..
we'll see how.
i still haven't buy baju raya..
=(
went j.b to look for them on friday..
got nice ones but either too ex or no size.
sadded..
yay!
i asked mama for puma watch..
and i want this striped jumper at giordano.
nice ah..
hehehe...
i'm bored..
people..
entertain me!!
::triple choc cookie::
chocolate-spongecake @ 3:03 PM
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Saturday, September 23
:|
i dont know how to feel.
CONG CAME ONLINE! but only for while.
he sounded so.. i dont know.
like im just his friend.
when i said i love you.. he didn't reply at all.
unlike 8days ago. wth.
i hate vietnam. changed my dear dear to a heartless creature.
yes. that's what he is for now.
and if he drinks every day.. so shall i.
come huda, i treat you to 1 bottle everytime we meet.
damnit.
gh irhgrahgaeurbvejbgvjrlaes
im pissed.
not even 1 i miss you.
FjhiohbhlbUnlbljCnlbouibK
cheesecake
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:27 PM
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fasting tmr.
firstly, selamat berpuasa to my sponge, cookie and brownie and all the muslims in the world. :)
haiz, before puasa i'm already sick. i got sorethroat and more ulcers in my mouth. uurrggh.
and thailand needs a new PM. any takers.? heh.
oklah.
love,
mutton.
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:23 PM
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my blood is red
i have a wound on de back of my left ankle.
i could see beneath de skin.
white colour.
"hey.. look." i giggled to amirul.
then blood just kept flowin.
hahaha...
but now it has stopped bleedin.
when amirul cleaned de wound for me,
then i noe how it feels.
painful with tingling sensation.
then i thought everytime we do dressin for de patients,
we do it like nobody's business..
hahaha...
::triple choc cookie::
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:13 PM
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cheese!!
wat u
put dat kinda entry
abt 'period' n all
omg...
guys hu r readin dat entry must b shakin their heads hard sey
haha.. notty u
i'm tired
bn goin out lately
seldom at hme
n yea today i went sheesha again la eh
bt different place
haha.
bt a few puffs onli today
headache la
nxt wk attachments
aawe...
cn i not go
i wan more holidays la
btw kak, sue, n huda:
selamat berpuase =)
cheese??
wana 'puase'(fast) together wif us?
cum cum i teach u...
hee
-spOngecake-
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:08 PM
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periods
you know when you have periods the one thing you fear most is overflow?
that's how i feel.
and you feel it ffffffllllloooooowwwwwwwwing out.. so gross.
esp when you're sleeping.. then you suddenly feel it coming out and you dont dare to move and you're figuring if it's gonna flow out and stain everything including the bedsheets.
i just experienced that just now.
that's why i woke up so early. menses woke me up.
damnit.
and almost every month i'd have the cramps.
i totally dread periods.
cheesecake.
11 and a half more days till cong's home
7 more days to new phone
2 more days to KK attachments
2nd day of period
0 days to new month for handphone! whee~
chocolate-spongecake @ 7:47 AM
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Friday, September 22
whee~
peeps!!
i've changed my blog url.
sorry ya..
had to cut contacts from de past.
go check it out.
and do edit in your own bloggies oraits..
::triple choc cookie::
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:40 PM
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:: aMiRuL & NuRuL ::
chocolate-spongecake @ 1:06 AM
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Thursday, September 21
Our Nite as One
 "i'm walking away, from the troubles in my life.."
 "thank God i found you (CONG).. i was lost without you.."
 "if i was a rich girl.. nananananananananaaa..."
 "where'd you go (NAT).. i missed you so..seems like it's been forever.."
 "this is the story of the girls...."
 "i'm flying without wings..."
 "shake it off...."
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 9:57 PM
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cheesecake!
JUNE SHYNESS
(words in brackets and colour are from me)
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls
LOVE you.
You are very hot (yes yes!). Secretive. Difficult to fathom and
to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation (that's why im a princess). Easily
consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable (true? i whine thou..).
Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.
spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never
forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully. Caring and
loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties
in studying (wahahha! this i gotta disagree). Loves to be alone (not at all).
Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for
friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive
unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
but takes long to recover.
hmm.. got this from nat's blog. most are quite true..
hee..
what's your stand?
chocolate-spongecake @ 8:47 PM
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signed, sealed delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 5:41 PM
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flu + pimple under the nose.
had fun today.. went for shisha-ing session with the 3 out of 4 babes, including 2 guys, the guy with 3 dimples and bestfriend Ri. :)
cookie has shared about all the fun so i guess i dun nid to lah eh. haha.
and sponge, quick upload pictures. but do delete the not nice picture okie. :)
oh, happy 17th month anniversary to cheese and her prince.
and brownie, cheer up darling. evry problem has its solutions.. and thanks a lot for the pictures babe. :)
and i had flu. and worst, i got pimple under my nose. and there's 3 ulcers in my mouth. and i got sorethroat. uurrghh..
oklah. tats all.
love,
mutton.
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:52 AM
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fun day, today!
wheee~
i had lotsa fun today.
went to meet mirul first..
(sorry babes.. we had actually planned to go out before you guys wanna go sheesha..)
we woke up late..
so everythin had to be a lil delayed..
went to catch a movie.. Pulse.
walauuuuu....
it's a thriller ah.
and all de way i covered my face wit his hand.
hahahha...
coz de ghost can jsut appear on de screen.
freaky sia..
after that we went to meet da babes..
for sheesha...
fun fun fun!
took lotsa pics..
smoke and smoke...
played games..
like ohnny whoosh, who is it?, take picture, black/white magic... etc.
and hairi was all de way dumb.
hahahha...
at least amirul noes some of da games..
*sighs....*
then it was time to get home..
mirul sent me right to almost my doorstep.
now, i can't wait for saturday's gig!!
my bestfren's performin.
but of coz,
i'm goin just for my bestie.. and not dante.
ughh!!
sponge.. upload da pics soon ok..
i hope someone had fun today too at sentosa..
or was it jurong swimming complex..
or da movies..?
i don't really noe...
hmmmm....
::triple choc cookie::
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:24 AM
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Wednesday, September 20
my tuesday
 look at muhammad and his stunts! and biba without make up. hehe
 got potential to be mummy?
 wir, baby and i
 met up with kawan sepondok (friends of a hut) for dinner at town..
 and we had durians post dinner..
 and of course that made fadhil very happy..
 our dinner... ooh, and we still had waffles after that...
spent my afternoon at sponge's place. playing with baby. watching her sis's wed video and browsing through the photo album.. talked and talked.. and wirna came and we talked sumore. headed off to orchard to meet the kawan sepondok for dinner..then met 1/4 of the mcg gang at taka skygarden.. had durians. then went home.. and had a nice talk with dear.. hearts** dear.
and this morning, i've been avoiding mum.. and she noticed.. pulled me and made me sit down for a whole hour.. talking to me about emotions.. taking me on an emotional roller-coaster ride.. oh gosh..
i'm broke la.
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 2:29 PM
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just now i dreamt of haz.. i dont know why..
we were eating.. then i took this half eaten fish then she also want..
but took it first.. so she no choice..
but i nice.. i share with her..
she said su look down on her..
cos she got 8pts for her exms or sth..
then su dont believe..
dont know la..
so weird..
thinking of food i hungry now..
sigh.
see you all later..
cheesecake.
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:47 AM
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Tuesday, September 19
ma apologies
well look like u ppl are havin outin tmr.. i guess i cannot make it ma cousins from m'sia are here rite now ahhh.. well guess am doin it agin and agian am terribly sorry gals.
U gals jus go ahead ah.. ok see ya ard now am goin to leave to watch movie haiz haiz doin part time tourist job....
chocolate-spongecake @ 2:30 PM
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cheesecake
all i do now is sit in front of the comp and blog.
about what? nothing.
just blog. like what im doing now..
i dont know what im doing anymore.
i feel so lost. so empty.
i dont want to keep thinking about him. but its hard.
15 and a half more days..
i think it'll get better wen i go for attachments..
just waiting for that to come.
aaron says school starts on 6nov.
are you sure?
lol. that's like.. 6more weeks.
i dont think so.
but his attachments ends on 3nov.
so on the other hand.. maybe he's right.
i dont know la.
blogger is soon going to be my new best friend.
i keep blogging..
i dont know what also.
oh man.. im repeating myself.
see, i told you.. im blogging nothing.
nvm la.. let me entertain you.
if you call this entertain.
lalalalalalalala.
chocolate-spongecake @ 2:25 PM
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whee~
thanks brownie..
it really touched me.
i'm speechless..
and i'm pickin up de broken pieces again.
i miss you babes..
=(
anyways, i went to watch Forbidden City today!!!!
it was...
SUPERB!!
FANTASTIC!!
WOW!!!!!!
when's our sheesha session??
::triple choc cookie::
chocolate-spongecake @ 1:09 AM
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Monday, September 18
sweethearts
thank you all..
though you girls never do anything much.. i just want to thank all of you.
sue, thanks for the lil poem. i really appreciate it.
just like how im feeling now.
16 and a half more days..
i can do it.. right?
sigh. i just want to bury myself and wake up only when i need to. like going out with all of you and for attachment.
i think im lucky to have huda and haz in the same ward as me.. even though diff shift.
haiya.
i dont know what am i talking about already.
nvm
see all of you soon. hope would be this wed.
i wanna see and snuggle up to all of you.
cheesecake.
chocolate-spongecake @ 6:27 PM
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aawe sue
u r so sweet la
e description jst fits each of us
thos words r meaningful
thks dear
hope u r doin gd
bt we noe sumting is nt ryte
update us ayt
hmm wednesday eh?
i duno whether i gt tarian pract or nt la
bt, lyke dun hav
will cnfem again k
u take care gf...
-spOngecake-
chocolate-spongecake @ 1:28 PM
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To my sweethearts with love
 Live life to the fullest.
Indeed life is too short for us to understand.
Love like you've never loved before.
Because you're the captain of your own destiny.
When he leaves, fear not.
Because everything happens for a reason.
When God decides it all,
We're left to pray, that's all.
Let the reason be clear,
because you're alive not just to live.
But to learn, love and believe..
 It hurts to let him go,
It hurts you so, but you had to go It wasn't your choice to make ends break, But literally the pain isn't worth the guilt Your love so full deserves a heart kind enough Someone who pampers you all day and night. Be strong in faith, be high in prayers, For the one who deserves you, Is somewhere there, come what may.
 Happy go lucky,
Awaiting for Mr. Right. Someone i respect, not just day and night. For being the advisor and listener, For believing that it's up to fate Reality is such, we may never know. But when love comes knocking on your door, i'm sure you're more than willing to smile in awe.
 Faithful to the only one,
i salute you for that quality. For the patience, for the time-juggling factor, For staying true, to the only one. Stay cheerful and strong, because your long love life, pays it all.
 Missing him, oh so badly.
Holding on tight, to the pillow with might He'll be home soon, don't worry. Because he's there to complete the call of duty Pray for his safety, Make your heart grow fonder, Because when he's back in your arms, You'll appreciate him more like no other..
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 1:02 PM
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god's creations
i'm standing here
amazed by the creations of God
i'm sculptured a beauty
of which i can't comprehend.
the heart melts in awe
as he comes in and stays
for being the one i adore
for being there in all ways
in tears she ponders,
oh why, oh why is it this way?
in all walks of life, i wonder
why is he here; everyday?
incapabilities
inconsistencies
incompetencies
insecurities
you treat my like a rose,
you gave me room to grow
you shone the light of love on me,
you gave me air so i can breathe.
unappreciative
that's what she is.
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:37 PM
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stone age
to my lurvely sweethearts, apologies if you babes felt i've been stoning without updating you babes. I've not been too well the whole of last week. Eversince i visited dYa at the hospital, been unwell since. But i've been updating the blog what? ..
emotional wise, i miss my father. he's been away for more than a week now due to IMF and i haven't been seeing him since. Sometimes it feels like i'm all alone, rotting at home. Feels like going out all the time but the heart doesnt feel good about it. Besides, i'm broke and the loo has been my all-time companion for the whole weekend. Down with diarrhoea. And with gastric flu plus vomitting. That's how i've been spending the weekend.
i've been very uncertain over my own emotions. I know sharing with you babes will not help because all of you will think i'm stressing myself unnecessarily and sponge will come up with the same response of "Eh, kau jgn nak merepek la sue.." perhaps that's why i've been keeping things more to myself, because i'm churning in a maze i created on my own.
It's not his fault, neither is it the situation. It's just my occasional turmoils that wraps me up in suffocation and the uncertainty that overwhelms me again and again. Perhaps i will share with you darlings when we meet up. I'm free on wednesday, any takers? Meeting the Kawan Sepondok probably tomorrow and the best buddies this thursday. Gona get Hari Raya stuffs with mummy and the sisters this Friday. So i have Wednesday to spare if you babes are willing.
i'm still contactable via my hp. so no worries la ok? anything just beep me.
i love you babes.
i love my friends.
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:56 AM
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IMH returns
 Zeyan's new hair colour. nobody wanted to open door for her in 22B cos they got freaked out by her hair.
 Catherine the ah-soh and no.1 GOSSIP monger. well known in 22B when she went back.
AaRon's new hair colour. Not so obvious here. But obvious enough to freak his dad. And me. And he's Catherine's no.1 GOSSIP partner.
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:46 AM
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=(
i'm sad.
i feel so lost.
i miss hendra.
and de doors of my heart are shut tight.
and i feel so lonely.
i guess i too have to learn to be independent.
all de memories keep comin back in my mind..
all de good times..
='(
::triple choc cookie::
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:23 AM
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Sunday, September 17
ohoh ppl
claire started her whinings oredi
opps..heh
aawe poor her
must learnt 2 b independent abit k girl
tis r all e' tests'
haha
btw
i'm curious
wat hapen 2 dear brownie
y is she all silent?
i tynk sumting is wrong
dun u all tynk so?
hmm....
wondering.....
n kakak!!
cn i have TOBY.
nw i noe.hahah
we have same taste la =p
ahaks.
ok?
-spOngecake-
chocolate-spongecake @ 1:03 AM
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girls i know im not supposed to but im just damn sad la.
let me whine thru blogging alright?
maybe ill feel better this way.
im in huda's house now.
but she's on the phone.
that's why im here.
damn.
she just burped.
ok.. that's besides the point.
point is, cong is 1000miles away from me and i cannot contact him and i damn hell miss him like crazy.
sigh sigh sigh.
nvm la.
i shall shut up now.
cheesecake.
p.s. huda is smoking skl now.
dont know why im telling you this.
oh well.
i've gone mad.
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:32 AM
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Saturday, September 16
congratulate me.
hello.
oh ppl, congratulate me ok. i went to geylang market just now. the best part, i was alone. power ah. i'm independent. i bought chili, lungs(erm i dunno but malay said paru. haha), and sotong. :)
oh, yesterday i edit a picture. dun think i'm mad ok. wee~
sweet eh. hahaha. aku gila. let me clarify, i was in love with his voice 1ST then his looks. :)
sponge, u can take him. he's gd. but he kena eliminate lah. wasted.
this one belongs to the princess.
the bald is prata's but the girl behind him, erm, anybody can take her, but not me. haha.
love,
mutton.
chocolate-spongecake @ 1:35 PM
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vietnam NP sucks.
today's the day i've been dreading.
oh well..
19days. sigh.
spongecake, you must keep your promise ok?
be my boyfriend for 19days. i love you!
when are we going out? friday? can can can?
no more delays already.. please.
19days. sigh. this is what i can think of right now. sorry guys.
I WANT MY DARLING BACK!!
cheesecake.
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:33 PM
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tsunami
Have been unwell these days, meals skipped, sleep patterns disturbed. But still i do not have nutritional deficit. Tummy feels like bursting. Throat feels bitter. Esophagus feels like throwing up all the time. It feels like a small tsunami is occuring from inside me. Been having backaches and cramps since tuesday. And period came officially on Thursday. Period= emotional turmoils.
It's unexplainable. How i feel. What i expect of myself. I'm losing myself. Unnecessarily. People feel like i'm losing myself. Truth is, i myself can't comprehend what i'm going through. it's just too detailed that i'm too tired to figure out. Perhaps it all shouldn't have started. I'm uncertain over what i'm going through. i'm unable to make even simple decisions like where i want to have lunch and what time i want to wake up. Everyday now is just a motion that i follow. Unable to decide on my own.
I want drama. I want to be part of the production. But the mum is nagging over my commitments. She wants my time to be at home. But what's the point? i end up sleeping and not talking to her anyways. the only time i talk to her is when she really has something important to say. And half the time nowadays, it's about my devotion towards my relationship. Enough said. I don't want the whole world to know.
Went back to 22A with Christina, Josephyne, Aaron, Sheeny & Catherine yesterday. Apologies to Cookie, i though Cat would have contacted those from your side to come back to visit. My heart was in tears. Though i wasn't well, i had to go back to collect my stuff i left behind in the tea room. I miss them. I miss the patients. Thomas vividly remembered me as the one who fed him and whose nametag he broke into two. My 'SG' was in tears when he saw us, surprised and elated to see the three of us coming back. It was like a dream come true to all of us, not just Chris, Josephyne and myself, but also to the patients.
Aaron, Sheeny and Cat tried to persuade me to have a meal at swensens. Which i did. But as soon as i got home, i puked the expensive dish totally. Went to take a short nap, and was awaken by mummy who forced dinner down my throat. That's when she realised i had fever. Fluctuating body temperature, just like my temper and emotions. Perhaps it was also due to the shocking discovery Cat, Aaron & Sheeny found out and delivered to me. Oh well..
Sorry isn't the word i should use. I should feel sorry for myself for feeling like this. But i can't help it. At all. I hope this phase will be over soon. I don't want to be the source of everything. I know you don't understand what i'm trying to say. Don't query. I have no idea too.
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 8:40 AM
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blargh
i'm dying of boredom.
hmmm...
and why do i feel so left out in here??
oh well..
whatever.
i'm just rottin here anyway.
so...
today,
some peeps went back to imh..
(and i didn't even noe)
but good thing is that faisal is discharged..
hooray!!
tomorrow,
no plans yet.
sunday,
raihan's burfdae.
monday,
gonna watch Forbidden City.
and de rest of de week i'm free.
so....
if ya'll wanna beep me, beep lah.
if not, don't.
::triple choc cookie::
chocolate-spongecake @ 2:57 AM
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rockstar.
poor dearest spongecake cos she dun understand about rockstar. let me brief you a bit abt it okie.
there's these 3 rockstar legend: gilby clarke(former guitarist of guns 'n' roses), jason newstead(former bassist of metallica) and tommy lee.(this one he's a damn gd drumer but i forgot he from whr). these 3 form a band call Supernova. they nid a vocalist. get it my dear? haha
ok cheese, YOUR lucas wins. he's good. all in one package. good voice, dressing all.
and prata, we should look on the brighter side u knw. i guess toby is a lil bit on the pop side and magni is better off alone. oh wells..
but i dun like dilana. attitude she. y she get 2nd?? and then she get all the credits. going on the tour with them la, get to do album with them. goodness. are they blind? nvm.
oh ppl. smone ever tell me abt this show prison break. its gd. and chan 5 showing. so we all must watch okie??
tats all..
love,
mutton.
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:02 AM
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to kakak:
nanny nanny poo poo!
blogger likes me.
heh.
i think im childish.
cheesecake. :D
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:01 AM
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Friday, September 15
hey ppl i duno anything abt rockstar
i'm so LOST
haha
todae i gd girl
sit at hme
do hsework
cnt go out
haaiz
cheese,
must b spendin tym w chong todae
he's goin tmr ryt
aawe poor u
ok ppl b ready 4 cheese's whinings ayt
haha =p
dun b lonely la cheese,
c, if i cn do it, u cn!
or wan me act as ur bf tis few wks
cn cn...
haha
kak n nat hyper ah abt rockstar
i'm clueless la
tok abt sumthg i noe k nxt tym
brownie n cookie lost duno whr
haaiz...
sum pics durin yest outing
wif min n maton gfs:
hearts em truckloads...
-spOngecake-
chocolate-spongecake @ 2:47 PM
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Thursday, September 14
rock neva dies..
shit mann... missed rock star supernova agin haiz.. missed ma darlin magni alot mann. He realli made me cry wen i heard him singin" dolphin's cry"(like BF) .. and he realli touched ma heart wen he played jimi hendrix's"fire" wow!!! he caught ma heart wen i first saw him wen he sang ma fav song "smell like teen spirit" he's ma idol mann. Haiz too bad he got a few months old child.. but still he ma precious gem!!
aH ha.. fati (mutton) ur gundu toby is real handsum but his wife jus gave birth oh.. oh..!!! haiz haiz didn't know dat eli is such a monkey well dun take it to heart gal.. he was jus kiddin neway u noe wat there's dis pigeon which everytimes sits near ma bro's room and i name is ELIAS power rite...
Cheesecake.. dun worry.. Failure is a next step for sucess try harder and u can do it de next time round.. tae each step slow and staedy
Spongy.. haiz haiz.. dun worry we can go out wen every one is free... a good outin wid everyone present there ok
Tri choc ooohh.. dats great dat u cut ya hair hmm wonder how u look like.. haiz haiz.. finally ya gonna consider love in a slow and steady way.. hmmm life teaches alot of lesson mann...
Brownie.. hmm de smart brilliant gal happy dat ya got great GPA score jus dun get worried dat ya cannot score 3.2 ... Try harder in sem 2 u can make it...
Guess am talkin so like an old aunty haiz haiz.. 20 already wat dats y!!! really envy u ppl mann still young am gettin alot of pressureard me almost everyday.By ma mum and kathik's mum..Ma mum is like suspectin abt me and karthik cos of de gift he gave me.. de onli shit thing she told me was 'think wisely dun jump into anythin silly and end up in a deep shit' Haiz!!On de other hand karthik's mum is goin ard tellin her relatives dat i and karthik are goin to get married in 4 yrs time gosh!!! terrible rite.. Am damn pissed la .. Like how eli says i oso wan shot gun marriage save alot of things...
PS: dun toby and magni look good haiz..!!!
chocolate-spongecake @ 3:06 PM
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cheesecake gets bored
WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR LAST EX
IF YOU COULD?
- i dont ever want to.
2.WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
- topshop top
3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR
FRIEND'S LIST?
- my darling, my 5 sweethearts and charlene. yes.
4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON
YOUR TOP FRIENDS LIST?
- no. not at all.
5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU
KNOW IN REAL LIFE
- 70%?
6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
- 2-3
7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP
WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
- okok la. you know i know.
8. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE
BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE NOW?
- claralina! lol.
9. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH
SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX?
- no. unless im paid like 1million pounds?
10. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST B-
DAY?
- went to billy bombers with my darling
12. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
- 11
13. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT
THREE NIGHTS AGO?
- i can't remember
14. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
-no.
15. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO
DO?
- see cong.
16. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
- i cant remember also. last week?
17. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU
COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
-my blinkings.. damn.
18. IF YOU HAD 250,000 DOLLARS... WHAT
WOULD YOU DO WITH IT?
- buy a house and get married.
19. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR
CURRENT JOB?
- studying? 1and a half yrs.
20. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
- i know no tom.
22. LAST THING YOU ATE?
-yst's ljs's shrimp and cheese fries or sth.
23. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
- june. my birthday!
24. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
- i dont know.
25. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING
YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
- white shawl from huda..
26. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT
NOW?
- anyone who doesnt buy food for me. that boils down to everyone. lol.
27. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
- chocolate-spongecake!
28. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
- ah cong..
29. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD?
- ah cong..
30. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR
BEST
FRIEND?
- yeah.
31. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK?
- mos ice milk tea.. or kfc's ice lemon tea
32. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE?
- no..
35. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT
WOULD YOU DO?
- rejoice? lol. no la.. i dont know also
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:32 PM
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30 questions- cheesecake
i got this in friendster bulletin.
apperently they say it's not the qns which someone who ever ask.
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today,
what was your first thought?
omg, i hair is so messy. what did the courts man think of me just now
2. When is the next time you will have sex?
- on my wedding night. or maybe not
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DUCK"? -
- fcuk?
4. Favorite planet?
- earth. only been here.
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list
on your mobile?
- adin's home number
6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
- ooh ahh? haha.
7. What shirt are you wearing?
- my topshop top
8. What were you doing 20 minutes ago?
- looking thru rockstar supernova photos
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently
wearing.
- none. im barefooted at home
10. Bright or Dark Room?
- bright!
11. What do you think about the person who took
this survey before you?
- i dont know.
12. If you're in a room with two beds, which one do
you sleep on?
- the bigger one.
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- online.. chatting and youtubing
14. What did your last text message you received
say?
-Aiya heck care already la..I only want to enjoy there..Not go there and do chores..I dont want..
15. How do you like your eggs?
- scrambled with onions.. like how cong mama does it.. mm!
16. What's a word/phrase that you say a lot?
-lallalalalalallalalala
17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
- my darling
18. Last furry thing you touched?
- ah round and chubby?
19. How many drugs have you done in the last
three days?
- none. i dont do drugs. lol.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get
developed?
- we're in the digiworld. no films man
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
- 18
22. Your worst enemy?
- loneliness. or germaine
23. What is your current desktop picture?
- my darling. with words 'float like a butterfly sting like a bee'
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
- hahahahhahahhahahahaah okok. dont sweat in your underwear ok.. its paper. hahahahah. lalala.. dear where you? at home?
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks
or to be able to fly?
- a million bucks.
26. What do you want to be doing?
- being with cong in vietnam.
27. The last song you listened to?
- bittersweet symphony by oasis
28. If the last person you spoke to was getting
shot at, what would you do?
- i would shoot the shooter then myself.
29. If you could punch 1 person in the face who's
- germaine. duh.
30. What is the closest item to your foot?
- my chair
chocolate-spongecake @ 12:13 PM
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rockstar
i missed rockstar results just now. now i don't know who wins. i shall have to wait till later 8 pm then i knw. but im in love with one rockstar: toby. because of him, i go to the website to find his picture so that u all can see my new crush. erm, he's hot. he also got tattoo. u knw i dun mind ryte. haha. im mad. here he is:
cute hor. oh, forgot to add that he's an australian. from melbourne. :)
oh ppl. do u think i'm mad if i said that datuk k hansem? i mean not as hansem like my new crush lah. but for someone who is 40 plus plus plus. oklah. maybe not hansem. erm, pleasant looking. heh.
oklah ppl.
see u soon.
love,
mutton.
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:38 AM
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to those who wants to know about my FTT.
i failed.
congratulate me. lol.
bored.
2 more days.
im sad.
cheesecake.
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:25 AM
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Wednesday, September 13
happiness.
hello ppl.
im sick. i may not look sick but im sick. hmm..
firstly, congratulations to all of you, and including myself, for passing our exams. wee~ :)
to cheese, dun give up on the final theory ok. learn frm mistake. we knw u confirm can do it the next time okie. :)
can we meet up next week instead of this week, pls. im goin kl this sunday to monday because a relative will undergo his surgery there. will tell u gals abt it soon okie. and if we go shisha-ing, we must bring mine and prata's new bestfren, Ri, because he wants to follow. can ryte? do u gals mind? cos if u mind, then maybe i go with prata and him lah. hahaha. like real. ok, aku gila.
oh sponge. i miss ur voice. and im still jealous of the way u type. i dunno how to describe lah. i also dunno how to say. erm, nvm. i will explain soon when we meet. erm, i suggest u take car license first okie. maybe i become independent and take motor alone. haha.
cookie. im jealous of you. bcos u cut your hair. my dad forbids me of cutting my hair. can anybody give me some tips on how to change a person's mind. i have been pestering him everyday until he got fed-up and he agreed, but agree only frm his mouth, not his heart. haiz. im sad.
brownie, how gd of u to get pictures of the hca's. im jealous, again. i only knw my crush's name. arnaldo. i dun miss ur voice cos u just talk to me just now. haha. and u very the funny. the person who calls you just now is none other than ur future sister-in-law. haha.
cheese, i miss ur whinings (its cute ok cos none of us can do the way cheese do). haha. u and ur lalalalala. hey, y not u go apply pdl and take ftt at the same time? erm, just a suggestion. hee.
prata. this one my 'darling'. dun forget. 'darling' with a '...'. erm, i hope u ppl get what i mean. haha. she just turn 20. as for me, im still young. i will only be 20 in 2 months time. haha. dun worry, i will be ur age soon. wee~. but i cant wait for 21 lah. i wanna watch r21 show. how?
oklah. a tv show is waiting for me. see u gals soon okie.
love,
mutton.
chocolate-spongecake @ 10:39 PM
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we r happy.aren't we.
congrats 2 swithearts 4 passing all e modules =) . so wen we goin out?? dun postpone again please i'm dyin 2 go out miss u all . bn spendin lyke alot everytym wen i went shoppin alone jst cant control my own pocket n now, i'm scared if mama ask opps... . nothing much 2 tok abt i jst wana go out wif swithearts wif ink darls wif min n maton =) can we?? . to KAKAK, heard u r sick rest well k drink lotsa warm water hope u r better todae . to DYA gf, take gud care of urself ayt home todae kan make sure u rest well first k n dun tynk of tarian till u r realli well . -get well soon dear gfs- . p/s: i'm happy i passed. yey. (alhamdulillah) . lucks 2 thos gettin results soon ayt. *prayin hard 4 u all* . -spOngecake-
chocolate-spongecake @ 4:25 PM
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Dya Oh Dya
 the sick baby dya..
 cheering the sick baby up..
us with the sick baby.. (L to R) wawa, biba, kak kyn, myself, dya, wir, ham2 & mai
to Dya darling.. you take care ok? May Allah bless you with the best of health. Get well soon. =)
Results are out. Praises to Allah, i passed everything. But i'm kinda dissappointed cos it's not up to my expectations. perhaps my target goal should never be too high. I've been procrastinating for the past 3 semesters. Left 3 more. it's time to increase my gear to gear 5. =(
Hope you sweethearts did well.
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 9:00 AM
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Tuesday, September 12
GOOD LUCK
tonight.. about 45mins time, results for 2006 year 2 semestral exams are coming out.
so GOOD LUCK to all the sweethearts.
may all of us have no supp papers and may we all have GPA 3.0
:)
cheesecake.
p.s. i miss all of you.
chocolate-spongecake @ 11:18 PM
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hudzz is here!!!
peeps..
got a few things to tell ya'll.
first of all, me and dante is over!
he's a sweet talkin motherfuckin asshole..
will tell ya'll when we meet up aight.
secondly, i cut my hair again!!!
hahaha...
it's cool.
lastly, i've decided to move slow in relationships.
(like finally....)
and i'm gettin close to dis guy whom i've known for long.
i mean i got to know him way before i even noe hendra.
and ya.. we started contactin each other back and not gettin closer...
anyway, i'm free de whole week except on saturday.
have to follow my sis see de lawyer.
will tell ya'll bout that too when we meet..
chocolate-spongecake @ 10:25 PM
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"One In A Million"
You're one in a million
Oh Now You're one in a million
Oh Sometimes love can hit you every day
Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see
But only one can really make me stay
A sign from the sky
Said to me
[Chorus]
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
A smile, there you were and I was gone
I always will remember how I felt that day
A feeling indescribable to me Yeah
I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one for me
[Chorus x 2]
In the beginning I was cool and everything was possible
They tried to catch me but it was impossible
No one could hurt me it was my game
Until I met you baby and you were the same
And when you didn't want me I wanted you because
The funny thing about it is I liked the showI like it when its difficult
I like it when its hard
Then you know its worth it
That you found your heart
[Chorus x 2]
You're one in a million
Oh You're one in a million
**i just fell in love all over again last night. Thank you darling. =')
:aniza: Yes! i was sent to 22A. it was sooo fun like nuts la!! i miss thomas and his "untie me! untie me!" i'll miss all the staff. =)
:sponge: motorbike license? pass btt dulu la.. haha
anyways people, i may have to give this upcoming hari raya production a miss. may not be around in singapore. following ncc to India for a community service project. hmm. to wirna dear, i'm glad you're discharged. Stay healthy. God bless. To dya darling, we'll be there at NUH soon ok? hang on there darling. even if you have to go for an op, no worries about that. cos' we're all here for you. love..
exam result jitters
signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 7:13 AM
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Monday, September 11
boredom results in rubbish.
i feel like blogging.
but i dont know what to blog about.
im bored.
oh ya, i figured since we're not seeing each other these few days, i shall blog about myself..
to update you about me.
i think all of us so do that. gagaga
im at home the whole day today.
cong's going to vietnam this sat.
and will only be back on 4october.
damn.
lalala.
do you know.. i love all of you alot?
yes.
even though i can be irritating and whiny,
you girls are always there for me.
thru thick and thin.
up and down.
left and right.
square or rectangle.
east or west.
blah blah blah..
im talking rubbish already. i know.
im getting fatter.
been eating alot nowadays.
su, when can we go jogging?
results coming out soon..
wahahah.
cheesecake.
p.s. i just realised we did not take a photo of us 6 during the last bbq we had.
chocolate-spongecake @ 5:03 PM
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