hey ppl.
hav bn missing fer a week-sorie.
alota things had happened.
everything just happened too fast.
yup. he has left me fer real nw.
its bn a week.
it had affect me terribly bt i'm tryin to accept tings.
i hope i can.
but sumtymes u just cant wen u r alone in ur room at nyte.
u'll start tinkin abt it.
its very painful.
thks to all my swithearts hu r thr fer me wen i nid sumone to tok to.
thks fer ur prayers fer my well being.
i'm tryin veri hard to get over it.
bt as u noe its just hard fer me.
i'm sorie girls if i havent bn myself tis week.
sorie fer just keepin quiet most tymes nwadays.
i hope u all understand.
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fer him:
i'm terribly hurt.
since tis is wat u realli wan den thrs noting i cn do.
u cn hav wat u wan-freedom, space, tyme, everything.
even after e separation, u said we cud contact lyke b4 bt its all fake.
i noe u just wana make it sound nice-its ok.
thks fer saying i actualli irritate u n owaes botherin ur lyfe nw.
mayb yes u cn move on dat fast bt not me.
u told me to open up n make more frens,
so dat i wont tink abt tis bt i'm sorie its just not me.
it hurts alot wen u said dat.
it just hurts wen i wake up in e morning n thr i realise dat i'm now alone,
n i'm no longer urs.
trying to smile in skul, wen only god noes how hurt i feel inside.
i noe tears cant bring thos tymes back to me.
bt i'm just disappointed in u.
aft 3yrs dat we r together, now den u realise dat u r not ready to commit to a relationship.
n all u cn said is if we r fated to be together, i nid not worry.
thks fer everything.
thks fer pampering me tis 3yrs 7mths.
i appreciate u alot even if u dun.
u go on wif ur lyfe dun wori abt me.
i only hope fate wil b fair to me.
my dreams r shattered.
my dream of u bein my life partner shud just b a sweet dream dat i can dream of.
thks again.
e memorise of us will b wif me thruout my lyfe.
may u got e happiness u r lookin fer.
til we mit again one day-insyallah.
: '(
-spongecake-
