Thursday, May 25
stress induced hypertension
Babes,
i'm sorry for giving you all panic attacks just now. I have to admit, my emo and stress was taking control of my health. Been unable to sleep last night. Had so many thoughts running through my mind. Who would love me still now that i've hurt fiza. Who would still be there for me when i was crying piece shit last night. Seriously, so many things was going through my bloody cerebrum, i think the neurotransmitters got lost along the way too. Dr. said i am fine. though he said i was suffering from stress induced hypertension, migraine and as usual, the asthma. All of these due to stress. I'm such a freak at controlling my emotions and when i eventually can't take it, it takes a toll on my health. I'm sorry i'm always giving each of you panic attacks. Like to the whole group 22, i'm deeply sorry. People go to school to study, not to fall sick. I shouldn't have turn up for school since i wasn't well. oh wells.
enough said. the problem was actually minor. Just the words that were being manipulated that is giving everyone misconceptions of the whole situation. For the record, i finally poured my whole emotions out to my parents. And trust me, nothing beats that satisfaction after letting the parents know everything. As usual, the mother felt i should just leave drama now that it was too much to take. And what's most important, is to really listen to my heart. Perhaps you babes should try talking to your parents when you're dwelled with problems. It was only then did i notice how much the parents were happy to share their own BGR stories. It's cool shit i tell you. And ooh, for the record, i'm in love with Mr Edmund Khng. I think he rawks la. 5 hours of sleep, i even dreamt of him can. Anyone has any chinese guys to intro to me? lol.
mum said malay guys are difficult people to understand. i don't know if it's true ar. But really, i'm just glad i didn't end up in the hospital. though going to a private clinic was a total bomb. i promise nothing of what happened today will happen again. and to spongecake, i totally understand your situation. just that i was so upset because i had noone to turn to. i just want the truth, as much as fiza does. i just hope she's fine. i've learnt to calm down. a lot. and ooh, just a confession. if you babes receive smses from my no., please take a double look at the way the person type the sms. it can jolly well be my mum instead of me. yup..
i'm looking forward to this sat. as much as the parents insist i stay home, i need a break ar. oh hell, what kinda break when ica not done. lol. we start tomorrow okie? ica. then movie. then esplanade. then shop for bbq. ok? so many things i wana do. sobs. i miss my star.. i last say him yesterday when i was reading my script outside bio lab after school with one of the drama boys..... i hope he doesnt think i'm with that drama guy. oh gosh i miss him.
signed, sealed, delivered: brownie suszy
chocolate-spongecake @ 6:35 PM
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